I feel like I’m plowing through days to get to the next, and then when I get to the next day, I plow through that, too.

I’m playing the same CDs while driving back and forth to my job, and I can’t seem to find anything that is getting through to me except metal. My job is boring the crap out of me, which is pretty typical for employees of financial institutions toward the end of the year when the budgets dry up and annual maintenance tasks loom. At home, I’ve been wasting my time on weird projects like trying to build my own speakers out of magnets and shopping bags, or baking batch after batch of biscotti.

On the web, I have a billion half-written posts that I haven’t been able to really sink my teeth into and get completed.

Maybe it’s the change in season, but I’m restless as hell. I need a good project. I think I have this need to contribute, but not in the “do something meaningful for someone” kind of way. I have a general need to find, fix, or create something that, in essence is fun, and total waste of time.

And I’m stuck. If anyone has the ideas, I have the energy. If anyone needs me, I’ll be the half-bearded guy walking around Lowe’s picking up and staring at seemingly random items.

*While playing with a Fresnel lens I had stashed away, I found 2 bags full of resistors, diodes, a soldering iron, and a laser pointer. For some reason, I think it was part of a project to run sound over laser that I meant to start when this same feeling hit last year.

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